i am made of memories

i am made of memories 

when cold hands touch mine,

i remember Mama's frosty arms on September 30th 

when i see my sister cry,

i remember shushing her screams on January 9th 

when i hear someone sneeze,

i remember my Poppy's last breaths on October 17th

when my friends say i bet you...

i remember Dad's pleads to Mama to stay away from Atlantic City on countless dates

when my stomach grumbles,

i remember rinsing my mouth from the taste of vomit on October 31st

when cop cars and ambulances pass me, 

i remember an echo saying deceased on September 30th

when the mirror doesn't show me what i want to see,

i remember Daniel's kisses and squeezes on July 22nd

when the shower gets too warm,

i remember how much i shook when i knew he'd say goodbye on August 15th

moments turn into memories turn into minutes again